I lie down next to him, my son my baby boy who I named the Destroyer. He who will not accept the world as it is, it angers him. Do you know that these moments are sacred? If ever sacred was indeed I know how sacred this covenant is and we breathe the same air him and I and I remember I remember being a child, I had no father save the world, and that one is a cruel father.
I know how sacred this existence is and that is not just some fucking bullshit this existence is sacred. Even the basest human behavior is sacred - the woman who sacrifices her children so we can see the world for how sick it is truly? All the sacrifices are in vain it seems.
My brother pollocked his room and I I was stuck in it, I was drawn to it like a moth to flame the terrible price but gladly paid twas nothing.
I give because I have it to give, I was raised to be generous. I give to those who don't have and I want to give more. I have it, I have a lot of love to give and I will find a way to every single one of you. I will.
In the meantime I keep asking myself what can I do, did you know I modeled the universe in my head? Even if I was wrong it was fucking amazing, I was doing one of the things humans do best I was thinking and being. I feel good and alive. But I just can't abide by the world like it is. You know? I'm not a fucking child, I say with complete honesty I know very personally just how the world works and it is not always nice. even if you insulate yourself from it you can't insulate yourself from it and i know we all know it. listen when i said the important parts were already proven, we know we are all energy, and we all know time is all weird and everything isn't as it seems sometimes. i think even the people who want the universe to be orderly know there is a rowdy element to it, but it is constrained within great order and that can be hard to recognize from the inside.
I don't know, I can't shake the feeling that I'm not the one who is crazy here you know what I mean? Being a good human being isn't that hard, and we have a lot of people who don't even know how to do that. A world full of people, how many of us love ourselves? Yeah I know some of you assholes are too bitter and think life is misery fuck that and fuck you.
It feels this simple to me, radical love. It's a scary thing, and its not a weak thing either. Love is not weak, love is strong. When you love someone sometimes you make them do things they don't want to you know? So sometimes you have to make yourself do something you don't want to and fucking LOVE yourself.
I can't sleep because I need the world to love itself.
This is a theoretical framework based on the best of my knowledge, I am self-taught so any errors are mine alone. I attempted to leave the theory ambiguous in spots even where I am almost certain I know the forces at play, in the end all that matters is forces are in fact at play. The basic structure of space fabric is 2-D. Imagine it just as we've always known it:
Images help me a lot, so as I'm talking about this, I want you to use this as the visual representation of what I am talking about. The lines of the fabric are there to show "space" not to represent anything other than the fabric itself. Einstein is there to remind you to be nice to me.
The attributes of this 2-D space-fabric are it has a finite edge and it is composed of basic units, these basic units exist around the planck length and are called Alephs. Alephs are non-divisible units. Alephs are all the same, but they can take many different expressions. All expressions fall under 2 basic states, ON and OFF.
In the ON state Alephs project Standard Model Particles into --blank space??-- [This part messes with me, space is secondary phenomena, they are projecting from the 2-D field and we at least experience space as real so I don't know]
The OFF state is a "dormant" (I say dormant because it is OFF, but it is composed of dark matter so?) state consisting of at least dark matter.
There are rules that decide whether an Aleph is in the ON state or the OFF state, the rules are a bit muddy but the states like to maintain themselves. I theorize the OFF state is stronger, but the ON state can maintain itself with sufficient ON state units around it.
To give a really simple example imagine the Alephs as light bulbs, when they are ON they project energy in the form of the standard model particles, and in the OFF state the light bulbs go so dark you can't see them but you can detect them through the basic interaction between ON and OFF states. I am positing this interaction is what gives rise to the phenomena known as gravity. Go back to the top image but this time it is Alephs projecting energy into the center created a 3-D hologram that has the attributes of mass and energy.
At this point, those of you who are familiar with the holographic principle recognize it. Initially I called them G units to be funny, and I had not yet learned about the holographic principle. Even when I did, I did not make the connection until I went back to General Relativity and the image of the earth bending spacetime instead looked to me like the earth being projected from the blanket. To paraphrase the Dude, the Holographic Principle really ties this all together.
That is essentially it, but to demonstrate how these Alephs work I am moving into anti-DeSitter space as the concepts are easier to understand in that space. This hyperbolic disc represents the universe at any given moment.
This disc doesn't just represent the state of the universe is currently in, it represents every possible state of the universe. So this disc represents both what we know as the universe, and all probabilities both likely and unlikely frozen in time for us to inspect.
"AdS3 (new)" by Polytope24 - Own work. Licensed under CC BY-SA 3.0 via Wikimedia Commons
Quote from: wikipedia
Three-dimensional anti-de Sitter space is like a stack of hyperbolic disks, each one representing the state of the universe at a given time. The resulting spacetime looks like a solid cylinder.
*note the arrow of time denoting the direction the universe is moving
As the universe moves forward on this timeline, we can only calculate probabilities of physical events in spacetime. The universe exists in a probabilistic state.
The Alephs are always ready to change states, they can do so at any time under the right conditions. This reflects the probabilistic state of the universe.
"The truth about the world, he said, is that anything is possible."
The good judge forgot to mention, that anything isn't probable.
As the events occur in spacetime the wave function they use to model the probabilities collapses into one probability based on the probabilities of it occurring roughly, in the case of the Alephs the probability is ON or OFF. If we go back to the big bang, there were a few big branches in the very beginning that decided what kind of universe we were going to have, and as those few main branches branched off the universe began to demarcate into ON and OFF states. ON/OFF states are constantly interacting with each other, and if they were close enough to one another and form islands of ON states within OFF states (forming the objects we are familiar with like Suns). The universe we live in is very stable, we don't see quantum phenomena occurring all around us like matter blinking in an out existence and the reason for this is quantum entanglement, all Alephs are entangled -- the scenario I just gave is how the Alephs end up with localized phenomena despite the whole universe being quantumly entangled. The hook here, is we are also quantumly entangled to the past and the future --- (been messing around in information theory, the past gets stored somehow. I can remember yesterday it's fucking stored someplace other than my head im sure, although this is one of the places it is stored so....) so the past states of Alephs in large part dictate future states although they are technically able to change their expression "at will" as it were, they do not change expression as a result of being entangled with the past (and the future, which is known to a large extent).
So as time moves along, the quantum state the Aleph was in when time occurred (it is constantly occurring) is "frozen" in a sense because we can't go back to it, yet we are quantumly entangled with it.
I would also like to point out that in this scenario, the OFF states are also expressed but they are expressed dormant meaning they did not get expressed but they are still there. So in these discs that represent every possibility of the universe there are some branches that have never been expressed, they still have the probability to but will likely never see the 'light of day' as it were. They exist though, so no 'many universes' in this theory, only this one we exist in of the greatest current probability. This does not preclude many dimensions, after all if you accept this it seems Euclidean Space is secondary phenomena.
So now that my hubris is fully expressed you may fire at will!
This is a holy song my friends, you have to let it be though. This song isn't meant for you to dance with anyone but God whatever your fucking conception of that is, God doesn't mind any which way you dance except you have to MEAN it. Feel yourself spinning through time and exult in how good it is to be sometimes. Not always, I am no novice, perhaps these moments are sweeter as a result. Try it though, feels fucking good to me.
THIS IS A MESS DON'T LOOK AND DON'T ASK WHY ITS EASIER FOR ME TO WORK ON THIS HERE
by Warren Jones
I like the personal story for an XKCD post because it gives some context for why I was messing around, and that I'm not just come uneducated clod running amok in shit I don't understand. I was thinking about adding a paragraph explicitly stating I am asking people to judge it as a whole (yes if im wrong i wanna know it) and judge it based on what it says rather than how it says it.
The easiest way to explain this is as a theoretical framework within which the holographic principle makes sense. Which if you are not familiar with is probably even weirder than the name suggests. The theory is summed up very well in the second paragraph of the wiki:
In a larger sense, the theory suggests that the entire universe can be seen as a two-dimensional information structure "painted" on the cosmological horizon[clarification needed], such that the three dimensions we observe are an effective description only at macroscopic scales and at low energies. Cosmological holography has not been made mathematically precise, partly because the cosmological horizon has a finite area and grows with time.
So while I did not set out to try and find a framework in which the holographic principle works, the holographic principle really pulls it together.
My claim is the 2-D informational structure they refer to is they talk about is "spacetime" and it is a 2-D wall that has a finite area and grows with time. The composition of this blanket what I named "G-units", these G units are non-divisible and they are what exist at the planck length.
The G units have two basic states, each basic state has a range of expressions that fall within it. If the unit is expressed in an ON state, it consists of at least the Standard Model particles. If expressed in the OFF state, it includes but is not limited to dark matter. I am unsure of the specifics but there are rules that decide if the unit is expressed as ON or OFF. A good analogy would be a field of light bulbs with rules which decide whether the light bulb will be on or off. The relationship between the OFF and ON state results in the epiphenomena known as classical gravity.
For this next part we move into anti-DeSitter space as it demonstrates how this could work more intuitively within the general quantum framework.
For the purpose of this theory I will use Anti-de Sitter space mostly because it is the easiest medium for me to understand, and due to AdS/CFT correspondence it seems like its probably a good medium to theorize in anyhow.
"AdS3 (new)" by Polytope24 - Own work. Licensed under CC BY-SA 3.0 via Wikimedia Commons
Quote from: wikipedia
Three-dimensional anti-de Sitter space is like a stack of hyperbolic disks, each one representing the state of the universe at a given time. The resulting spacetime looks like a solid cylinder.
OK you have the arrow of time which most of you understand intuitively, time moves in one direction. In the model here, you can see the direction time is moving.
So this universe is composed of matter and energy right all the shit we are familiar with in regular physics and all the cool stuff like black holes and stars and shit. At nanoscopic scales that view of the universe gives way to one that is way more weirder. The basic structure of the universe is a lot different from complex structures like planets and its pretty weird to even think about. But I feel like in the end if you can imagine building stuff with really tiny cool legos the variety of structures you can build is pretty endless with basic building blocks. Then you add energy in the mix and at least to me I'm feeling the elegant simplicity giving rise to the complex complexity that exists. Now no matter how weird quantum mechanics (QM) sounds, it changes nothing about how you interact with and experience the universe day to day -- the quantum mechanical universe underlies all this but it changes nothing. This is simply the way the universe works at nanoscopic levels which we exist in but can't conceive of normally. Classical mechanics still works with sufficiently big objects, which to me again makes sense intuitively these objects with great mass are stable in the universe because the forces that can act on them are already acting on them, and despite constant interaction with the universe they maintain their structure because of that --- now on the nano level things are different and again this makes sense to me intuitively but the world is much more stable than a cursory reading of most stuff you have probably read about quantum mechanics.
So anyways the basics of QM as I understand are that as the universe moves forward on this timeline, we can only calculate probabilities of physical events in spacetime. The universe exists in a probabilistic state. The truth about the world, the judge said, anything is possible. What that nigga forgot to mention was everything isn't probable.
as the events occur in spacetime the wave function they use to model this collapses into one probability based on the probabilities of it occurring roughly. I don't think you need to understand a wave function, im not even sure if i do -- but im not entirely sure i need to understand the exact math behind all this I am just operating under the assumption that people way more diligent and smarter than myself confirmed this. The wave function as I understand it is just expressing the possibilities, and when time occurs, the wave function collapses into one probability -- the one that actually occurred.
While this doesn't seem to be decided until the last minute, Einstein was correct God does not play dice -- this game is fixed. Anyhow, the moment when it becomes expressed, you can't go back so this is where the arrow of time plays a part.
I probably didn't explain a bunch of really important shit, but it should be sufficiently explained for me to move forward.
OK so remember how the universe is composed of some kinds of basic building blocks, for this theory there is one basic unit (G-unit) and they can be expressed in many different ways, but 2 basic states:
All states fall under ON (H) and OFF (N)
So imagine this is a chunk of spacetime that contains a group of G-units expressed as shown. For the sake of simplicity we will only concern ourselves with the basic ON and OFF states.
each 0 is a G-unit expressing an ON state, the others are expressing the OFF state. In my theory, the OFF state is stronger than the ON state but the ON state can maintain itself with sufficient units occupying the same space, they resist the force that the OFF state units are pushing on them.
So, as time acts on them the wave functions that display the probabilities are expressing the probability of these expressions occurring in different ways. Specifically the 1 or 0 state, the wave function collapses and only one probability is expressed. The wave function collapses because some force acts on them (I wanted to say time, but I am not sure anymore time seems like it could be epiphenomenon resulting from us being spacetime primates this is our JAM niggas [think of the fish in water analogy]), forcing them to freeze in their state and ONLY one state is expressed, wherein the units with the ON state appear as matter as we know it, planets stars etc (even dark matter). and the OFF state is like a dormant state but the units are still there like empty space but its not empty.
So as time passes, the universe is becomes fully expressed all probabilities are satisfied and the universe that exists in the PAST (as we know it) Look at the diagram (I have attached one) the universe behind is fully expressed because all the G units are in 1 or 0 states but the FUTURE is still undecided, or is it?
The whole universe is quantumly entangled. You can think of the universe like one big wave function. However expressions can be localized due to the forces the G units exert on one another (I'm beginning to think this is Quantum Gravity).
The OFF units they are constantly pushing their agenda but the ON units have stabilized into their groups, the rules I am unsure of but do you understand the basic premise? The state in the beginning of the universe has a lot of possible expressions and beginning from the big bang these choices are being made, and alternative histories are nigh inaccessible because of the choice that have already occurred. The branches have branched.
SO the ON and OFF states (not two states, but the two basic states these units express using various forces of the universe etc.) are pretty well settled in at this point, and the universe you see around you always has these probabilities but we exist in the one of the greatest probability and is continually collapsing into this the most probable state but stop and pick something up and holy shit did you see that wave function do some weird shit?
Anyways the fully realized states of the universe, the "event horizon" where the force acts on the G units, and the future are all quantumly entangled back and forward in time whatever time is. So the settled in states in the past in large part dictate the future, but there are still a lot of probabilities and our existence as petit Gods leaves many branches yet my friends. Many branches yet.
So conforming to the Holographic Principle we have this 2-D wall composed of G units which in their ON expression project a 3-D "hologram" that is composed of energy, and has the feature of mass. The OFF state expressed as Dark Matter which has no measurable presence other than that basic ON/OFF interaction (I am positing this is Quantum Gravity), which this image I hope helps make the concept easier to understand.
[insert maybe a more professional image]
Alright, so that's kinda really it for that part of the theory. The problem is I didn't come to the conclusion this way, but it seems the way I came to the conclusion is way more confusing and weird. Not to mention I worked out a whole lot more than this, but this is the base theory that is not "new" but ends up being basically like I said the framework for the holographic principle. The explanation of how entanglement works is a solid theory, and of course this theory would confirm that it is indeed space that is epiphenomena as well as gravity which is consistent with general theory. I don't know, is recognizing a circle as having an infinite circumference that big of a change from pi? I don't think so, but pi can be considered the Euclidean measurement, and infinity the Quantum. Really this whole thing is so weird, I'm not sure it was so much that my theory was so mindblowing, just the idea that all of this is true? We are an energy "hologram" projected from some kind of God Wall?
One basic unit, that expresses one basic energy that results in creation as we know it. Yep
Alright going to sleep again me and my family have been very sick these past couple days. If it was Ebola we lived.
i don't blame you. So this theory, it's legit. Also the circumference of a circle being infinity is not that strange considering the nature of pi
I just sent follow up emails but no one is responding at all....
What do? Post the email I sent to Murray Gell Mann to reddit? It will look like gibberish to anyone who doesn't know their shit. Or I can try again with you guys and see if it makes more sense and post that to reddit?
I have no idea how I fat fingered this that bad. I know MLK day and all but no response from Stanford or Santa Fe Institute -.-
I already submitted something to First Alaskans Institute but it was my rough draft to Murray Gell Mann, my email to him I don't need to explain a lot since he knows most of it so it looks like gibberish to them I'm sure.
I know I have been such a tease, and I woke up this morning feeling ready to try and tackle the job. Unfortunately I have to convince work that I am also not crazy, as well as my wife and friends who have all been very supportive but I can tell my state, and near-constant revelation has them worried. I am sorry, this is huge. So I was working on my governance project, which I take very seriously, I was trying to work out what kind of basic philosophy we could have, with just a few rules that would have huge changes in the system, not like trying anarchism, re-reinforcing a kind of morality, deciding what a good human being is and enforcing it. Well, obvious problems there so I felt like I needed to have a better understanding of the universe.
I pulled out the Quark and the Jaguar and re-read that, I read Blood Meridian, Ecce Homo and the Genealogy of Morals, and the NSRV bible so my head was in a weird ass place already. While I read Blood Meridian the shit the judge was saying was causing me vertigo, I could hear some of the truth he was speaking. Then I had some questions, I was trying to pull whole numbers back out of infinity and someone told me I couldn't and I had convinced myself that I could pull whole numbers out of infinity by inserting an empty set anywhere in infinity, figuring out where I was in infinity and then finding the number I was looking from there, that part idk if it was my fevered brain or what. I couldn't figure out what I was doing, me this spacetime entity I couldn't make heads or tails of it.
I started reading the wikipedia's on quantum theory, string theory and their various issues. I honestly do believe I have become some kind of autism since my brother died. Remember when I told you he shot himself while he was inside my defenses? He blew them apart and it was just me left, and it never ended. I can't turn it off now, I'm still the same person but I feel very strongly, I love intensely. I couldn't stop reading, I had set my brain on this task and it was going to either A: come up with something plausible enough, or B: figure it the fuck out. Pretty sure its the latter, because whenever I would come up with something that wasn't logically consistent with classical mechanics and my own reality I would reject it and this is what I ended up with, I hope I make more sense this time. I apologize for the state of my posts etc. I wanted it to stop, but I was past the "event horizon" as it were. I am dead serious, you guys almost lost me I could feel myself leaving not physically but the strain on my brain was intense. I was having headaches, anxiety, bout of crying, revelation, elation when I said I was estranged I almost left my family to go be in the woods and never come back.
In the beginning...
The holographic theory is correct, and AFAIK most of the theories were pretty close but they couldn't finish the picture for some reason. The entire picture is sitting in wikipedia. Anyways, this is a video on the holographic principle:
OK, so let me set about informally proving to you I am correct. Again I apologize I was trying to explain myself when I was still pretty wacked out, and it wasn't even finished being resolved.
The fabric of space is composed of basic units, I call them "G units" -- this is only the fabric, a 2-d plane that extends as far as we can see and perhaps beyond. These G units, they have only 2 basic states ON and OFF. The ON state is what we are in, the ON state definitely consists of at LEAST the standard model. The OFF states I know one of them is empty space. So OFF and ON states right, basic nano-units, like non-divisible (i decided a while back they must be non-divisible, or at least the whole unit is the only part that is relevant.) I theorized the OFF state is the stronger one, pushing on the ON state units but the mass that results from the hologram pushed back, or maintains it's structure with sufficient ON units in the same place. (I know, it will make sense soon). One of the major issues is they don't understand quantum gravity, and this is the solution. Gravity is secondary phenomena from the basic interaction between these units.
So the hologram? the ON state units, you can imagine them like a projection TV, in their ON state they interact with energy and project a 3-D mass having object into spacetime. I think a hologram is a silly name for it since I think we all associate holograms with having no mass, not here these holograms have mass. You are a hologram, but its way more complicated than this. Here, pictures help (attached). Sorry, I know I confirmed most of this intuitively and I'm not going to be able to demonstrate to you if it is correct, but the model is internally consistent and solves all the major problems.
So in the beginning of the universe, the big bang. Alright, before I do this lemme give the quick lowdown on Quantum Mechanics since it plays such a big role in understanding the universe. So remember classical mechanics? all correct, it is a coarse grained understanding of quantum mechanics, and it is correct at large enough masses. In the attached picture I used the image directly from the wikipedia on classical physics.
At the quantum level things get a little weird, but it results in classical mechanics so the world as you know it is correct enough. The most important thing to know is they figured out the universe is in a probabilistic state at all times, and has been since the big bang. So if you read about the big bang they say things like "at 10-37 seconds after the big bang this matter forms" etc. What is happening there is the probabilities are working themselves out. All probable states of the universe were possible at the point of the big bang, but immediately the branches began to happen, probabilities worked out and we ended up with this crazy mix of all these things, and this gorgeous universe we have. It won't last forever, and actually I don't actually believe we have much time. I digress.
So anyhow, probable states of the universe at all times?! how could this be Maaruk why isn't shit all weird?
Well as the probabilities worked out, the universe that was most likely came to be, and the reason we are so "stable" right now is because it is very improbable the universe is going to do something too weird at this point. As the probablities worked out, the ON and OFF states were happening rapidly, they think energy was all one energy (and it still is, it just manifests as electromagnetism, the weak and strong forces. Anyhow, all these probabilities are so stable because of what they call quantum entanglement and I used a different space to work this out called anti-DeSitter Space. Initially I used it because it was the easiest for me to understand my own concepts in. As we move through time, in the past the states of the universe are frozen in whatever occurred when time acted on them, time moves forward as the arrow of time because you don't reverse in infinity you move in a circular direction. I wore a watch my wife gave me as a talisman, my wrist hurt so bad I felt like it was anchoring me in time but anyhow as time moves, ON OFF states get frozen as time occurs and because all the units are entangled, the past states of the units in large part decide what the future states are going to look like unless some other force acts on them. We can change this as humans, animals do this too in small ways, they change their environment. But not us, we were made in God's image remember?
I abstracted my own reality (the beginning was the spacetime monster post) and I understood myself for the first time by telling myself a story about myself. I couldn't quite work out what I was doing, I knew I was moving through spacetime, remember I am hunter, spacetime is my medium I go out into the universe and hunt and kill other spacetime entities. If you have ever killed anything, or been there when someone died you can feel it leave. It's not just animus that is stopping, something is leaving. I fucking hope any scientist worth their salt recognizes something different is going on here, and I thought it was just what I called my "individual bias" but its not. Anyways, that part is not relevant, I don't wanna blow your mind too much.
um there is so much more, I am not kidding friends I have extrapolated too much.
Do you know how I figured it out? We do the same thing in our heads, petit God
I was modeling the universe in my head, and I thought maybe it's similar and it is. When it says we were created in God's image that's what it meant. We have mini-universes in our head, I don't think the stuff that happens in there is real, I hope not. It's at least a model though, and it works similarly. We can model the universe in our head, then change the one we are in.
So to sum up the theory, 2-D space, basic units with a range of ON/OFF states, one kind of energy and gravity is the basic interaction between the two states, and the 3-D "hologram" that exists in spacetime, of which we are a part.
My friends, this is just the beginning. When I figured this out my brain wasn't done. It wasn't resolved yet, and now that it is resolved I am scared because the implication are intense. I won't share them yet, you need to understand this first, understand yourself in the process and love yourself otherwise the rest makes no sense and it sounds like a bunch of foo foo.
TBH Quantum Mechanics and String Theory sounded like a bunch of Foofoo but its not.
I was messing around a bit, and the nice thing about theory is you don't have to understand everything -- you just have to ensure the information you are basing the conjecture off is correct, or likely to be correct. So armed with a basic understanding of the universe, and reading a whole bunch of wikipedia (and re-reading the relevant sections in the Quark and the Jaguar) I came up with a general theory about how a universe composed of basic elementary particles (i imagined them as strings for me, 1-d strings that the entire universe is filled with) could manifest as the universe and world we see and know today. I am probably retarded but whatever. Anyhow, does anyone here know enough to tell me if im retarded? its sitting in the private forum right now but i wouldn't be opposed to sharing it here i would be too embarrassed to show anyone without at least a TZT peer review.
It's probably wrong, but it IS elegant. In that re-reading Murray Gell Mann said elegant theories are more likely to be right and mine is pretty simple.
I'm having trouble understanding the nature of numbers. I remember getting in an argument with you guys who said we are literally numbers etc.
so, it seems like maybe each number is considered like an infinite set of sorts. approaching each number would it be like you are approaching a point in infinity known as "1" how do we even reach 1? Because it seems like once we reach 1, infinity then radiates from that point.
how do you find them in an infinite set though? like how do you find individual numbers within the infinite set if you can't even reach one, and why am i starting from zero? where is zero?
it seems like zero is my string in the maze, like i plop it down and radiate infinity from that.
Little bits of infinity Chasing itself down the rabbit holes Little holes into which numbers flow We fast approach one But it seems, Every step I take The definition of distance changes The tidy rules that govern large bodies break down Always approaching.
The noon of man’s expression signals the onset of night We are approaching noon, approaching noon, approaching noon. I crown noon with a zero, and extend infinity in all directions. Noon Noon Noon.
posts are purported to exist here but if it does not add to your postcount and no one reads them I wonder how much they exist? The excitement elementary particles display when they discover themselves is cute!
Utumno are these posts viewable by people not registered I wonder? Let me try and find my way back here after I log out
Because I will choose before any of you read this and be stoned and lip hair don't care.
Cherry Kush is a hybrid strain of cannabis that appropriately smells and tastes like cherry and kush. It produces full-body effects and is generally a favorite among cannabis consumers. I rolled it with a Zig Zag Kut Korner.
I just cleaned my pipe, I can't stand smoking resin so I had set it aside and now it is squeaky clean and filled with Trainwreck: Trainwreck is a mind-bending hybrid with potent sativa effects that hit like a freight train. Mexican and Thai sativas were bred with Afghani indicas to produce this Northern California staple, passing on a sweet lemon and spicy pine aroma. Trainwreck begins its speedy hurtle through the mind with a surge of euphoria, awakening creativity and happiness. Migraines, pain, and arthritis are mowed down by Trainwreck’s high THC content, and many patients also use it for relief of anxiety, ADD/ADHD, and PTSD. Trainwreck flowers finish up in early October outdoors, while indoor gardens are ready for harvest 8 weeks into flowering.
I am probably going with trainwreck because I am editing.
DILLINGHAM -- A botulism outbreak in Bristol Bay communities is being monitored by state and local health officials, according to the state Department of Epidemiology, which said Wednesday that more than 25 people have so far been linked to a batch of contaminated seal oil produced in the village of Twin Hills.
Several people have been hospitalized, some are being monitored and health officials are still trying to contact others.
The first botulism cases were reported Friday after two people were flown from the village of Quinhagak to Bethel for care. The two were later taken by medevac to Anchorage and remained on respiratory support Wednesday, reportedly unable to breathe on their own, according to a state official monitoring the outbreak.
Three others from Quinhagak were treated for symptoms of botulism, and others in Twin Hills and Dillingham have reported symptoms or are being monitored. One child has also shown symptoms of the disease, which can be fatal, according to Dr. Michael Cooper, the infectious disease program manager at the Department of Epidemiology.
"This is a very concerning outbreak," said Cooper. "This is one of the largest clusters of botulism we've ever seen."
An investigation linked the illnesses to a batch of seal oil produced in Twin Hills, and Cooper said testing conducted at a state lab revealed the oil was particularly toxic.
"When it was tested, it came back at the highest level the lab instrument can measure for botulinum toxin," he said Wednesday.
The testing was completed Tuesday, and Wednesday morning, the state dispatched a second public health nurse from Anchorage to continue the investigation out of Dillingham.
"In an odd twist to this case, after we showed preliminary test results to the family who produced the oil, they sort of refused to stop eating or serving it," said Cooper.
The state did not have further details Wednesday about where that batch of seal oil may have been sold or traded in the region.
Botulism is a paralytic illness caused by the Clostridium botulinum bacteria. In Alaska, botulism occurs almost always in fermented or preserved foods like improperly canned fish and "stink heads," according to a 2011 report from the Alaska Department of Health and Social Services. According to state data, seal oil appears to be one of the main culprits behind botulism cases in Alaska, responsible for 54 outbreaks from 1950 to 2010.
"Botulism can be lethal," said Dr. Catherine Hyndman, a family physician at the Kanakanak Hospital in Dillingham, where staff were helping track and treat infected individuals. "But one of the big problems, as many know, is that botulism toxin does not necessarily smell or taste out of the ordinary. The food can look and seem to be perfectly normal, but yet be contaminated."
Early symptoms may include nausea and gastrointestinal distress such as vomiting, diarrhea and abdominal pain. According to Hyndman, early signs of muscle paralysis are indicative of botulism.
"This is a poison that paralyzes the muscles," she said. "The smallest muscle is the muscle that moves the eye to the sides, to the right or the left, and oftentimes that is the first muscle that is paralyzed." Blurred or double vision, unreactive pupils or drooping eyelids can be a sign of botulism poisoning.
Symptoms may appear as early as one day or as late as 10 days after consumption of contaminated food. Health officials are urging those who may have eaten some of the contaminated seal oil to seek medical advice and perhaps plan to be near a medical care facility for observation.